the shit i landed myself in

hihi..i am once again stuck in-front of thy beloved com for my reflections.its been 3 days @ the centre and i feel bad enuff already.no,the kids didnt drive me up the wall (ok..maybe not all,but a few) i think its more like..oh nvm.i shouldnt reveal too much here.hhmm..i;ve been feelin pretty sick and frustrated especially with myself.damn it.i dont know why but i suppose cozz the end of this diploma is coming (early dec)and recently, while i;ve been looking at the kids in class, a question just triggered and i stopped to question myself : "ade, do you want to spend your life in this field?as a pre-school teacher?can you see any future in it?" and guess what the instant, loud and clear answer was? yes,i came up with an instant and complete "NO!"
omfriggingoodness.just stab me!

a part of me is like..i want to go back to design.the other part of me is like..i love my time around with kids but..to be with them for the rest of my life seems a lil too scary for me to bear.

tell me more about it man.what is friggin wrong with me.i really dont have any idea what the fark i;m thinkin anymore.to think about it,i miss design.really,i do, amidst those wave of deadlines,i miss sketching by a corner and thinking of solutions to solve the problems and looking into the market.ok now..

will someone in the furniture field/toy design field employ me already?
i am missing all the damn action already..

oh and did i tell you that 18mth baby cries lesser now?
and i made him feed himself and he have mastered it lah..
ok..thats the part where the satifaction comes in..




err..ya.they stick to me like elephant glue.
ok i know i look like crap.
tell me about it when i;ve to watch so many kids..like duh~

and yes, i am addicted to this song recently.
yes i admit i WAS boyband freak when i was like 12-14 yrs old but i aint one now.
so just shut up and watch the mtv now..



ade:s @ Wednesday, November 08, 2006