the thing that used to matter the most.the thing i was always clinging on to.the time i enjoy most.as i grew, i realised my surrounding people's true colours.some however ugly, i;d take and learn from them.some however selfish, i stay away.some however too proud over the role/title of a leader, i try to nod my head in attempt to satisfy.call me odd.call me a loser, a slacker, whatever you want--it matters not.i stand up for what i believe.i stand up for what i know is right.and friendships are things that matters so great--they leave permanent footprints in my heart.i no longer cry over broken friendships like how i used to during my younger days.it was crap.i know now.people change.nothing lasts forever.no blaming.no cursing.no wanting to know who did it wrong or right.if it wasnt meant to be, then it wasnt meant to be.i see, i hear, i experience, i learn.i know how it feels like to eat a bowl of noodle all alone in japan or to wander off alone in the hearts of japan.i know exactly how it feels like to be answered by a useless, "i dont know" everytime i ask a question.i just happen to know how it actually feels.it feels lonely at first but over time, its a matter of getting used to it.like what i mentioned earlier, no more blaming, let bygones be bygones.i aint the sort who takes and keep.i can open up if you ever realise i was there.and in whatever times, believe it or not, if helping out was within any of my capabilities, i will, no matter how long the duration is.sec, mins, hours, days or months.every ounce of effort counts.i am only human.i dare not say i am a perfect friend cozz i sure aint flawless.but when it comes to feelings..i'm just like you and anyone else.i feel...

ade:s @ Monday, February 06, 2006