the things i wanted so badly.the things that meant so much.i know it.its impossible.beyond reach.aint gonna deny that.i know it far too well.like how it has always been.i've learned the hard way, to never let it get that far.i try.i restrict.i do my bestest best.but somewhere along the line, i lose it.i lose myself.my perseverence, my lesson learnt.i;m stubborn and i insist.i know being too determine will hurt me-in the end.cozz all i want is something words cannot convey.something that's so priceless and precious..theres just a million reasons why i love you.and to destroy it all, i search for that 10 deadly flaws of yours to make me stop right there.so i wont fall in love with you, all over again..

goodbye.it wont get that far.at this moment.it stops here.right here, in the depths of my heart..
like how i;ll say it..dont tell me all about love when you yourself dont know how it's like to be me...

bottled up inside are the words i never said
the feelings that i hide, the lines your never read.
you can see it in my eyes, read it on my face:
trapped inside are lies, of the past i cant replace.
with memories of you and me that linger--wont seem to go away.
why cant i be happier? todays a brand new day.
yesterdays are over, even though traces of the hurting's not.
nothing lasts forever, i must cherish what i've got now.
the hurt i'm feeling now, wont disappear overnight.
but someway, somehow, everything will turn out alright.
no more wishing for the past--us.
it wasnt meant to be.
it didnt seem to last, so i have to set him free...

*the future will soon end up like the past, a long lost unknown history.i;ll treasure what i have and not fall back on memories with false hopes.

ade:s @ Monday, January 09, 2006