it was a bad day yesterday.a wreck.total wreck.

"this is a CO2 canister and i am intending to incorporate it into my inflation design.and..."before i could complete my sentence..
"i dont understand"he raised his voice.
"so exactly which part do you not understand?" i mumbled softly.
"i cant see..so i dont understand."he replied.

tell me exactly, what is your farkin problem?you cant see so its my fault?is that it?you aint no lecturer, just some over-age guy who chooses to study in a polytechnic.why should i even bother to please you?if you cant see, the least you could do is move your ass and come nearer to hear.why should i even bother to show it to you when you think your design is unbeatable and you are the best?i must admit, you are the best in our cohort, for sure.i respect your design.i think it's practically fine.i aint gonna deny that.i look up to you--knowing for a fact you are better then me.i hear your critisms on my project, i amend, i try even harder and even save my tears by holding them back in time when you cant talk properly and sound so defensive.when you present, i bother to hear, bother to move closer or nearer when i cant see or hear.but still..after all, you are a student.a student who is on the same level as me.the least you could do is respect me.respect my work.* sighs

god, please help me become a better person and not bear grudges. see me thru this tough period.

ade:s @ Thursday, January 12, 2006