why must things end up this way.it just makes me feel bad.left me heartbroken.just feeling dead.i try.i did try.i really did.but things just wouldnt get better.why must ties be strained til its max?why is it so hard to compromise?why wont grandma want to see us?why not?not even a glimpse of her.unbothered i may seem.devastated i am deep within.she left us outside.by her door.speechless.us, all lost.lost for words.lost in actions.just simply--lost and all teary within.will this come to an end.will it ever happen?will it get perfectly pieced back together?will we ever meet again?and when will that be?will we have christmases like we had before?will we have new year visits like before?will we gather together like we used to?will we?will we?

i missed it like it was before..give me back those days..please

ade:s @ Monday, December 05, 2005