bottled up feelings.bottled up thoughts.i so feel like crying, over what, i just dont know where to begin with.i wanna cry it out loud.scream if i could.i feel lost.tired.useless.nothing seem to be going right.
can i give up everything now.head to the general office and grab a pink form.pink form=withdrawal from school.i doubt so.too chicken to do so actually.lack of courage.lack of confidence.i am an unstable, impulsive person who'd go for something i like for that moment.i know myself.and i hate myself for that.i really hate myself sometimes.too much to be true.tell me tomorrow will be a better day.though it would not necessarily be, please lie to me if you could.i might believe it and live in this lie.
dont pity me.i dont need no sympathy.i live for me.and if life's like that for me.then i'll live thru it.if i fail, then we'll see about it.if i pass, i wanna pass with a smile on my face.cozz nothing beats happiness, my happiness.

ade:s @ Saturday, December 03, 2005