its been a busy week.todays a fri now.one heck week of stress.man.i feel i might die young.really die young.from work.from chasing people.from allowing myself to keep control and not break into any frustration and irritation.i;m learning to control my temper.if i dont.hell breaks loose.a lose-lose situation,for sure.hell no..why make things so hard on myself and people around me.but guys, if i tend to be a lil off control, please do forgive me yeah?maybe give me a lil time to loosen things out, sort things and then i;ll get back to you as soon as possible.allow me some breathing space.i;m gettin older and my stamina aint good.

with regards to ken's blog.i lifted this paragraph..
"..or how ades' riding her ups and more downs in life, how original she has always been; how similar her life is to what i was living. come to think of what u've asked,"do u envy me.." i can now ans, i really do, i cant help but long to live the life i had like u do now, not affected by relationships, living a life ultimately for yrself."

ken, it's good to know you wished you had a life like mine.i aint trying to say my life is flawless--a bed of roses, neither am i trying to say it sucked to the core.to a certain extent, while in this messy crap lifestyle i;m in now, sometimes, i;m just so thankful to know so many things are happening in my life-where work is ultimately concerned,keeping me so occupied and tired.but on the other hand, when work comes up, some stuff got to be sacrificed as a result.and yeah,it is definitely a big regret sometimes.like i have far lil lesser time spent on myself, to take up things that i;ve always wanted, to learn things that interests me, lesser time and attention towards the people around me who has been there for me when i was pretty down in some parts of my life.but hey, someday man, someday..you'll realise how it feels to live a life of your own..that "your life", all in your hands..and not in others.
maybe all you need is more time to sort things out..

*keep in mind the basic essentials in life, never overlook them cozz you'll never know wad you have missed out on..breathe and live life as if today was your last.well at least, i try to live like i might die tomorrow..then, if i do die--i;ll die with far lesser regrets.

:: nobody said life was easy ::

ade:s @ Friday, November 18, 2005