it has officially begun . no more wishy washy

the design brief is all given out.everytime the design brief is given out..it can be felt..silence in the air.stress.thoughts screwed up.the feelin of being pierced.realli farked up feelin.worst then being sick..but on the other hand, a whole new adventure to explore.
a new start to begin with.
how contradicting bitch..how contradicting

anyway..time to think real deep towards what i really wanna do.this time i dont wanna be caught in that usual hassel.i dont wanna go around askin how..i try not to--that is.i should be real firm this time..i mean, its the final one.i gotta do it right.i really have to think it thru.what i really wanna do.like wad benny said..to choose wisely.indeed, i can easily grab any crap and start doin..but for a start, i aint gonna go thru that sort of shit and land myself in complete hell.i;m trying to think real hard + carefully.it aint fun esp when there are external crits and all..

yeah.so wad if i manage the interim?
i'd still die at the end of the other crits.
how true benny..how true..
i dont wish to be shot and then be left in an awkward position in silence.silence means..lack of information, lack of research, plain laziness..plain dumb.no no no.i cant afford that.i obviously cant afford that.i do my best.yeap..like always, i do my bestest best.

a final year student.a graduate-to-be.my oh my..what a thing to wonder over.i;m gonna leave skool as an educated designer..
my oh my..
*ade shits in pants..

"tell me baby, what a wonderful world.." -- yeah right..farkin hell no!

ade:s @ Thursday, November 10, 2005