let me tell you how it feels

just a lil more time.it:ll just be over.bear it for just a while is all i ask.it:ll pass.it:s just a nightmare i:ll wake up from.i know it.dont ask me why or how.i:ll try with no promises.sometimes its just painful to look around and everything seem hazy and unright.it kills all that:s inside.but it matters not.its just a moment.a moment of uncertainty.a moment of doubt.dont tell me you will be my best friend.dont even tell me you are my soul-mate.i aint what i seem to be.for i dont even know myself right sometimes.stop telling me everything.i dont wish to know no more.just sit by me with a closed mouth is all i ask.and i:ll feel good.good enough to smile.good enough to be glad.i:m learning to learn.learning to look.learning to realise.learning to seek.learning to hear it right.dont you think i:m confused.i may sound unstable but somehow i know i:m not.amongst all that messy thoughts of mine, i hear me.a small voice right in there.calling out.dont tell me you are beautiful.i dont wish to hear the words.for i know that aint true from within.so stop acting like you are.