sometimes i get so freakin pissed with people in my life.if you want to ignore me, very well, go ahead and do so but before you do it, can you kindly tell me what the fark i've done wrong so that i will at least know why.sometimes that ego of theirs is so freakin high that i tend to have this urge to wanna tell them straight in the face..BUZZ OFF FARKER, WAD A PAIN IN THE ASS, STOP BEING SUCH A SHOW OFF--COZZ I'M GETTING IRRITATED.but i didnt cozz i know it might only be in that moment that there is a need to show it off so that i may begin to feel desperate--indirectly motivating me,that, i am certainly thankful and i definitely dun take that to heart.at least i endured that irritating remarks.and there are also times when i asked questions cozz of uncertainties (of course) and you farkin vent that anger of yours on me cozz of something that might have frustrated you in another matter.these are times when i tend to calm myself down and try not to fight back cozz i dun wan things to turn ugly.and eversince then i've been trying to not "find trouble" by being a distraction or yakking away or asking questions that are classified under your "dumb questions list" cozz i definitely dun wanna be minced in a pile of shit.so i tend to drift away, saving myself from all that unneccessary commotion.i dun deny that there are certain extent of biasness that tend to be reflected before my eyes but i tried to overlook that "feeling of hurt i feel", and i take it that god is somehow fair--if i cant be good at something, i'll very well accept the fact and i try even harder to find out in which area i might be stronger in.but i was never given a chance to, in this case.


i dont hate or love the ugly situation now but at least, i wanna noe wad this childish ignorance is all about.if i've done anything wrong, tell me straight in the face and i'll very well share my side of the story so it'll turn out as a win-win situation.i think help is definitely needed in this case before things turn out even more nasty.


and more help is needed for these people's attitude cozz a hardworking attitude will not bring you far.but the ability to make mistakes and to learn from them and the willingness to have an open mind, to hear what other people have to say--rather than assuming that things are definitely right "from my point of view" are more important in the case of success.cozz if things are always thought to be right in your way, you'll tend to only look at it from your personal perspective and not from another person's point of view.you can live alone but you can never work alone--for there is always room for cooperation and "two minds are definitely better then one".i admit i'm not an all "As" student in PID.i know there are many things i'm not good at but at least, i'm willing to put in the best i can but you never seem to be able to see this side of me, my determined attitude towards my work...

ade:s @ Monday, August 22, 2005