"so how?"benny asked.
"i've decided.i am doing this."she replied confidently.
"you sure sound very firm in your decision."he smiled.
she nodded her head.but at the coner of my eyes, i noticed her peeking at her untidy pieces of doodles.i could tell that she was still uncertain, caught in a total dilemma.just as i was about to say something...she decided to proceed to the canteen then for home.
while in the bus, she was caught in a daze.i suppose she was feeling troubled.
"we've been thru 2 yrs (4 semesters) and we are still going strong.don't worry.we'll make it this time."yanting tried to assure her.
"but what if...what if i cant make it this time?what if the end result does not turn out the way i wanted? what if..."she tried hard to hold her tears.
"trust me, everything is going to be just fine.you have me here with you.and i promise to stay by your side no matter how tough the going gets.we'll make it hand-in-hand."i comforted her.
"you know that dont you?you know that i need you so badly.i live for you and if its not for you i'll die..."her eyes welled up in tears.
"we'll make it this time.i assure you.we will.have faith in me.we'll make it together.just a little more perserverance and patience.time is not a factor.we'll make it with zipeedee yummy colours."i smiled
as i held her hand in mine, we stood by the window.i helped her seal her bubbles of fear and anxiety.next, we opened our rusty troubled box and laid her sealed fear and anxiety in it.
"goodbye, for now."she whispered.
"this is just the beginning, never the end.we'll work this out together."i uttered.


**pls note that i aint no lesbian.this is a story of her(me) + i.in other words, i'm talking to me.

ade:s @ Tuesday, August 02, 2005