ade sat outside airdivision for a full 20 mins during her hour long break time.with the hustle and bustle of the town right before her eyes.people running and walking back to their respective jail cubicles after their hour long lunch break away from hell.she was feeling a lil down.she feels sick.so darn sick.she really aint feelin well.all she need is one hard knock and tada!she'll be on mc.she needs a month long mc desperately.her eyes can no longer function properly.her astig is obviously getting from bad to worst.she can hardly see the number plate in the morning and its killing her.she cant figure out 162 from 135.both looks the same to her and shes darn irritated.she tink she should really wear her specs now before she go blind eh?


too much up my mind.just too much.not so much on work but on my life.i dont wish to think any further and i can so feel my eyes giving up on me.i can feel my lazy lids closing every now and then.its symptoms of exhaustion i suppose?rushed home today after work and got changed and went for a jog.it feels good after one.especially when ive got so many stuff up my head and when its been a real long time since ive done that.i love jogging.to feel the wind in my face.to break my limit on how far i can go.no one by me to disturb or distract my attention.its just me, jogging and thinking of all my problems.and by night, i'll be so exhausted, i'll fall straight to bed as soon as i touch it.this is my way of escaping from reality.


jogging have always brought back memories from the past when i just took up physics and the teacher was darn horrible and the best part was everytime after physics lesson is our physical education session.i'll prefer to run instead of playing games.i run alone.at my own pace.my own speed.and after those stressful physics sessions, i'll tear while running.i cant help but feel dumb and useless.i have to admit, at times i feel like a bird trying hard to struggle for survival.those were the days man.i certainly do miss them.and i very much will miss the people who have crossed my path.i treasure them and i will cherish those priceless memories.memories are such happy yet painful and unforgettable experiences i go through over the years.can you see my scars?can you feel my excruciating pain that never seem to exist on my face but deep within?can you feel them tonight?

ade:s @ Tuesday, April 05, 2005