juz finish watchin the 9pm Channel 8 show~ "hai you ming tian"..
watched a lil bit of channel news asia.the baby,Jakcob,9 mths old past away.so sad..so heart-breaking..i'm thinkin..if one day i were to go for a full-body health screen and finds out i've got some illness.wad should i do?how should i react to ppl around me?wad should i do?should i be glad that i'm better off gone young and save the trouble of being a burden to the society in future?or should i be sad that i gotta leave tis world so young wif so many things left undone and unable to give in my best shot to accomplish.it'll be a pity.i guess it's juzz life..

++i wonder.if i die,will anyone cry?will anyone bother?will anyone regret not treatin me better?will anyone remember me?will anyone miss me?will anyone actually bother?

did nothin much today.woke up rather late.exhausted.did colors around 12+ didn't get the colors at first..a lil frustrated but later,i manage to "hullucinate" myself.manage to pull myself back again and start mixin the colors.mixed it til like 5 plus.slack for a while den had dinner and watched tv til now.oh yah..i'm workin tomolo~haizzz yah i noe..i've decided not to work but i can't resist temptation and besides,they're desperate for ppl to work..so..i had to.i know..i'm supposed to do my PIDP1 but i've gotta do it tonite den.i gotta organise my time..i noe i can..i sure can..if ppl can,why can't i?i've gotta play some mind-games,to be able to work out my stuff well.to be able to work well,i gotta make sacrifices and i know,it's juz a matter of time before i lose my sleep--so why not now?

**wish me luck peeps..and hope that along the way to the battlefield,i'll be strong and fit and ready to put up my best fight~ god,pls bless me..


ade:s @ Wednesday, July 07, 2004