6 days..yup..long time since i blogged.hhhhmmmm...i'm like kinda drunk now..drunk in my stressful life.all mixed up.all confused and pissed at myself.why can't i get my stuff done?cozzz i'm not capable?i yak too much or i lagg too much or i got no ability or cozzz i nv push myself harder?there seems to be sometink within me.distracting my concentration.so wads that tink?i ain't sure.it suxxx...it realli suxx when the world seem to be crashin down on u.i hate that feelin.i hate it even more when my mum and dad tinks that i'm simply enjoyin myself and not workin hard enough.i tink it juz suxxxx when they tink that i'm always relaxin and enjoyin my life when i'm actualli caught in a dilemma whether or not i should go to JAPAN.

yup..they dun even noe that i had the chance to do so.why?cozzz i dun tink it'll make much of a diff even if they noe.so wad if they noe?wad can they say?wad can they do?in the end,they still leave that decision to me.i hate it ah..i wan to consult someone who realli cares about my life but there dun seem to be anyone who would actualli stop and listen to wad i have to say.at least care?everyone seems to be so caught up wif their own lives.i noe it ain't their fault.i'm juzz too sensitive i guess.i tink prob i should go back to counsellin like wad i had back then when i'm in my sec. skool.but it's like not much of help ah?she talk more than me ah..she juzzz yak and yak non-stop ah.hai yah~ i tink i dunno seh.feel so stressed ah!so tired ah!i juz hope i'll survive thru tis sem..ok lah..i go eat now ah..finalli feel hungry..buai!i noe..i will survive.i will!i will!i will!ppl..haf faith in me!mama,papa..dun worry..i wun disappoint u..i will do my bezz..i juz hope that @ the end of the day..u'll be proud,real proud of me.i realli wish that you'll be..

ade:s @ Tuesday, July 13, 2004