++see.i.dont.noe.why.i.like.you.so.much.i.gave.you.all.of.my.trust~
fuck.what.i.said.it.dont.mean.shit.now]
fuck.the.presents.might.as.well.throw.em.out]
fuck.all.those.kisses.it.didnt.mean.jack]
fuck.you,you.hoe--i.dont.want.you.back >>>

he called while i was workin today.saw his name in my caller id.immediately picked it up.he asked bout victor's surname.and we hung up.he called later @ around 10+.w/o hesitation,i picked it up too.i was bz.herbert was around.the only tink i could do was put the fone down unwillingly.i miz him.yes,for now,i muz admit whole-heartedly.i miz him.i miz him.realli miz him.i'm wonderin what he's doin.wonderin whether it's tough on him.wonderin how he's gonna tahan.wonderin how he's campmates are.wonderin whether they are abusin him.wonderin if he can get used to the ppl and environment.wonderin whether he is still thinkin of *her..wonderin,ponderin…
~i noe i can't stop him from thinkin bout her.i know it's very selfish and cruel and inconsiderate of me to wish that she'd be away forever or even to the extend of her rejectin his feelins and drawin a straight line between him and her--that they are through and done.this isn't me.i ain't that sort of farkin bitch.i've ever thought of it tho.how the ending might have been.him,heartbroken and done for this past relationship and slowly acceptin another.prob i might still stand in that 1% sort of chance.does it matter?does it really really matter to me?





ade:s @ Thursday, June 10, 2004