hot hot hot..the weather's killin me~ hate it...irritated, frustrated..i'm still thinkin of the bag..my puma brown and orange old skool bag..i'm mesmerized by it~i'm so in love, so in love with it~WAIT 4 ME! FOR HERE I COME~ :)

i'm gettin worried..as in real worried.i juz read *RIUS's* (identity changed to protect person's reputation) blog and guess wad?SHIT!wads goin on?i'm missin out alot..and i mean it..it's ALOT!he's like a changed person!DARN IT!wads wrong wif him?WAD SHOULD I DO? FUCK! how should i go about helping him? tis is scaring me..way too much..tis was found in his blog--

"haha..had kinda a smooth sleep last nite..talked to him again..4 like the past 2 days i guess..yupyup..its hard 2 admit but i really miss him i guess..its like when i talk to him it juz gives me the comfortable feeling..but its not as comfortable as be4 i guess..haha..he has change..thats something i cannot lie bout..its very obvious loh..yupyup..actually i did not no wat happened at all..haha..we were 2gether finely..but he juz had to end it all..butttt..wats that to nag bout..we did not really started at all m i no wrong..haha..reading his blog or dairies..other gals existed but not me rite.!!!haha..oh well guess i was juz the pole that was on the way to lean on as u were walking by and getting tired a..haha..comfy..!??done..and ur gone..never turning back a..kept talking to u last nite..starting most of wat we were talking bout..and when u were busy on the tv..i wanted to put down..u juz kept quiet and than tried carring on our conversation like u heard nothing..i no u heard me..so did u..!?haha..dame i'm paranoid..being over sensative too!>>!??!?!?!so wat does that mean??u wanna talk to me..but u don't 1 either..!?do u actually still like me..!?that the thing i wanna no..but guess its a big nono a..well u talk bout ur 'galfriend'..say thats she's nice to u and everthing..wasn't i as nice..@!?caring bout u and all..but guess all that was nothing buit crap i guess..its weird but i have to say this..i think that u r kinda my inspiration..the day be4 my art exam..as i was talking to u..ideas jus flooded my head..but although i was doing my preprations slower..the outcome was..WO!!haha..add somemore ideas and i took that piece as my final art piece..heeee..it looked great..hope i'll score well a..heeeee..oh yeah.."--18th May 2004

so wad?wad does it mean?u mean he's gay?or wad?i need some answers!how?no no no..tis is juz a nightmare!it can't be true!DARN..i tink i can juz piss straight into my pants now~F.U.C.K!

**DAY 8 (NITE) W/O KHAI & XIAO PENG~
i need my green tea frap!
i'm dying of thirst and heat!

ade:s @ Friday, May 21, 2004