Andrew clicked on me last night in MSN. I told him about my bro's band and how badly they did. And of course, playing my Euphonium. He persuaded mi to join Temasek's Band. But i was like...Dunnoe lah~ Scared lah..i like lousy onli. Andrew also told mi bout his Saxaphone & how much improvements he have made, Really lookin forward to hear him play. Can't wait 2 go back 2 skool wif him 2 catch up with the other Juniors.

I went 2 church in the morning, the usual, all sleepy & of course dreamy. Den later, received an sms from Shan. She was like askin me to go down 2 Toa Payoh 2 meet her. Soon after mass ended, my mama and papa and bro went to Bishan while i went to meet Shan. Had MOS BURGER for lunch. We chilled a little. Talked for a while. On our lives. How time flies. And how it's time to get into a relationship. During then, i thought about him. I miz him, i muz say. Dunno y. Orrrgggghhhh....hhh let's drop this subject for the time being..Before i go all teary again...

Yup. As i was saying...WAH..Now it's May, den it's June! My fav month of the yr. Den OH NO! July..School reopens! SUCKY! No more FRESHIE! Now JUNIOR..I dun wan! DAMN..I hate it. So fast. Den soon we'll b in yr 3 den..BYE BYE!!! I'm gonna be real sad!!! Cry my eyes out! I hate parting, i really hate it! Juz makes me wanna THROW UP. I'm gonna miz Sarah, Shan, Jolei Jolei, Uncle, Kai Ren &...(ok let's be nice for once) the countless WITCHES. Scared ah..So fast! After getting my DIPLOMA, prob work for a while den go take a part-time course on HOSPITALITY or should i not? I'm unsure. Ai yah..i dunnoe lah~ feelin so old now.

My back is hurting so much recently. This time it hurts so much, i actually have problems walking. It hurts sometimes when i walk...LET'S SEE...
Let mi list out 10 tinks that i'll do before i die:

1) Hug Shan tightly. Make sure she'll not cry @ my funeral. Hope that she'll find the right one soon. Hopfully, it'll be JUN--There, she'll find happiness.

2) Hug Sarah tightly. Make sure i give them ( Sarah & Victor) my blessings. That i'll ensure they'll lead a healthy and happy life. I'll guide her children too!

3) Tell my mama and papa how much i truly love them. My bro..that i'll help him find a great wife and assure him that he'll be able to live a comfy and blessed life.

4) Kiss Huskie & ask sum 1 to drive me around in a car--A ride to nowhere.

5) Tell my Auntie wad a BITCH she is. Can she stop ruining da family ties?

6) Remind my mama to include my bolster and blankie in my coffin.

7) Make sure no one cries at my funeral. My death is not the end. I wish to be remembered, part of one of the most beautiful memories.

8) Have my last meal wif Keith, Andrew, Justin, the class of Sec 2EB (2000) and Sec 4EA (2002) and da guys whom i've broken their hearts in the past. Tell them i'm real sorry. How cruel i was then. But i've realised my mistake.

9) Stare at him straight in the eye. Remember him. Have a "HEART TALK" with him. No need for any exchange of words. Silence is all dat is needed.

10) Wish that he'll be as happy and fortunate for as long as he lives...

**I MISS U..BLiNk 182**

ade:s @ Monday, May 10, 2004