I've decided. It's either now or never. Decided to gif up my sleep for this 2 days. Slackin too much and HELL! I'm not done yet and when fri comes, i'm realli in SHIT, and i mean DEEP SHIT. I know i should'nt be bloggin now but wadever. I haf to..i realli haf to! If not i'll feel all moodless and sick. Oh yah, tokin bout sick, i feel so damn sick now. Feel i can collapse any moment now, either lack of food or due to my achin backbone. I've realised dat eating is realli a complete waste of time. So time consuming and if i do take a break, it'll be forever which ain't good! For now, believe it or not, every meal is not an enjoyable meal, but juz sumtink to full my idiotic grumbling stomach. Sometimes i juz feel so busy til i wished man was mv borned stomachs so we can move on 24/7 and not waste a damn bloody sec. Dunnoe how i'll make it for CHOW'S lesson tomolo. But all i noe is i'll be in wonderland. Where all my stars and bolster and blankie would appear and prob, my greenie-eleph]

*As days draw closer and nearer, i noe we are drifting slowly apart and soon, u'll leave. U'll prob go on a vacation den in JUNE (my fav mth of da yr) u will be on ur way to camp, go serve da nation and go all bald. Dun worry, i wun be affected even if u go all bald. I guess u'll still be da same~ For at least i'll noe u'll b who u are..There u'll spend ur time training and under those harsh conditions. It's a real pity i onli got to noe u now, when u're 20 and i'm 18. If onli i knew u earlier. Prob we'll be better off--WHU KNOWS,U N P R E D I C T A B L E~ +to my greenie-eleph, from ur imaginary pinkiepig++*

ade:s @ Wednesday, April 14, 2004