Today was a fine day. Didn't turn up for lesson today. FeeL kinda guilty tho. Uncompleted work-- & da greatest sin, OVERSLEPT~ Woke up like @ 11 and lesson was like @ 12. Tempted to go for lesson but decided not to when i finished my bath @ 11.30. Then thot bout my roll of film. How desperately i gotta get it done again in da darkroom. SO..I SKIPPED IT~ YEAH, I SKIPPED it. Now feelin so guilty! Nvm, sometimes, a gurl has gotta do wad she has to do. Give myself a break.

Went to skool wif da intention of developing my film straight-away, but ended up eating my breakfast cum lunch @ da studio. I WAS HUNGRY! I TRIED TO ENDURE~ But i can't realli can't! Den da next tink i knew, i had to attend *FRENCH class. Went to da class w/o Sarah. Coz she was still in her la la land world, still on da way to skooL. So i got into class and it begun already. Found myself a sit and sat there rite beside Ting Shan. A few mins past and Sarah arrived. Was feelin down, energy level down to almost 0. Sarah, sittin next to mi was like down too. PANDA PANDA PANDA. Poor gurl..So tired and worn out. Look as if she nv slept @ all. Hmmm..mm wonder if i'll suffer da same tink (dotting) under Nancy's hands. If i had to do wad Sarah is doin now--I tink i'll juz die. Wun even try, JUZ DIE. Prob hang round Starbucks wif my fav cup of Green Tea Frap + Xtra whipped cream or Coffee Bean wif my ever so yummy cup of Pure Choc Ice Blended + Xtra whipped cream or @ Swensens, eatin Strawberry Banana Cream Ice Cream..Shaking my head and sighing wif disbelief..How i am gonna pull thru. Prob commit suicide i tink, or mayb juz tell my mummy i wanna quit skool..Or sumtink like dat. Haven't thot of it yet coz it isn't happenin on mi yet. And i ain't wanna be caught as a DOTTING VICTIM~

OK~ After lesson went to da darkroom. Later met up wif Keith and FINALLY met up wif him. Was supposed to meet him like a long long time ago to pass him his birthday pressie. But he is always not free. So finally, da day has arrived. He waited for mi like for an hour ++ HE DESERVES IT! :p But he didn't mind, which was kinda great. Tis is a good sample of how a guy should be. Den i and Keith and Shan went home together. Today was special. Sarah was not wif us. WHY? Coz she went honey-mooning wif Victor. (It's alright..Sarah, u are excused.) Den Keith went wif mi to get dinner for my bro AND DEN, I MISSED MY BUS. So Keith and i had to walk like 2 bus stops b4 i reach home. He came up to my house and we had a little chat. He tried da shirt i bought for him. He felt dat it looked weird but after some comments made by my mummy and my bro, he finally think dat it was ok. I f only my daddy was home, den he would tell Keith he looks perfect in it. ha ha ha :) YEAH RITE. So, he went home straight after dat. Had my dinner, not realli, juz sumtink light. And now, glued in front of tis tupid com. With tons of stuff in my mind, waiting for mi to do, but i can't seem to give a damn about it coz i'm too exhausted to tink or do anytink now~ So i tink i should juz slp now and shut da hell up.

ade:s @ Tuesday, March 02, 2004