Today's a fine day~ Rendering & drafting was great and so was my *S W E E T I E~ Juz like everyday~ : )

V-Day is comin soon! Feel kinda sad though (sob sob) Used to celebrate tis particular day wif [3soMe]. We used to either xchange gifts or buy each other flowers to brighten our day (& to "CONSOLE" ourselves) on tis special day. But for tis yr... EVERYTINK IS DIFF now~
DISTANCE & TIME took everytink small and precious away from me-- Our joys, tears & lotsa memorable laughter [all those countless yrs of ups and downs]. Why muz tinks end up like dat? I often wonder...AM I AT FAULT? DID I ACTUALLY TRY TO PREVENT TIS FROM HAPPENING? WAS IT ALL ALONG LIKE DAT? SHLD I DO SOMETINK BOUT IT? WILL IT HELP?...I juz hope i'll get an answer--

I noe i did treasure the frenship. I think i've already given out everytink i could give. Was it their fault?? I DUN NOE~ I REALLI DUN NOE~ For now, i'm still hurting from the wound they made. Ppl often say--time will heal the wound-- but for me, i guess it'll nv ever heaL. The wound they made has cause a great impact on my life~ Nv ever ERASABLE~

Yes, i'm emotionaL..And i do cherish lil stuff like dat though i dun show or say it out loud. But is tis how it's meant to be? The [3some] was practically MY LIFE and for now, MY LIFE has been scarred. Not by a small cut or a burnt wound, but like an acid attack. Part of MY LIFE is scarred now & nothin, completely nothin can ever make up to tis painful and "undefinabLe" hurt i feel right down deep inside.

I juz wished tis was all a dream. A nightmare. That soon i'll wake up from. I've already learnt wad INDEPENDENCE is~ I've learnt it out of hurt & torture--For now, pLs, pLs give them back to me~

ade:s @ Tuesday, February 10, 2004